Uncertainty

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"Living is a form of not being sure, not knowing what or how. The moment you know how, you begin to die a little. The artist never entirely knows. We guess. We may be wrong, but we take leap after leap in the dark."
– Agnes de Mille

Over the last few days, I have felt an enormous amount of uncertainty… Was quitting my job to pursue my dream the right decision? Do I have what it takes to honor my passion and follow through? Will I make enough money to pay to my bills? Am I living in the right place? Am I focused on the right things? When the questions come, I feel stressed and anxious. In these moments though, I recognize that my feelings are quite normal for someone who just up-and-changed her entire life path. I also know that I’m not alone in feeling uncomfortable with life’s uncertainties.

So many of us question our circumstances and decisions. We spend so much time worrying about and wondering what our future holds and not enough time enjoying the journey. We can never really know what will happen a year from now or tomorrow or even in the next moment. Life is fundamentally uncertain. Things are always in flux, always changing. We can feel happy and then sad in an instant. We can have everything under control and then everything can fall apart. We are alive and then we are dead.

What if instead of being crippled by our uncertainties we just accepted them, found the beauty in them, and lived more wholeheartedly through them? When we can recognize that our feelings and circumstances don’t last, we can better appreciate our journey and the moments we share with others. We can live our life in each present moment. We can embrace the changes and let them carry us. We can feel the satisfaction that comes from being fully alive.

There will be hard days and easy ones. Sometimes you will feel more uncertain than others. The trick is to just keep doing the next thing... Keep working toward your goals. Keep loving with your whole heart. Keep laughing like the joy will never go away. Keep dancing like nobody's watching. Keep living. Don’t waste your life in fear and worry; experience it. Strive to find every beautiful thing in the uncertainty of it all, and know that you’re not alone in your quest.  

Let it bake,
Allison